Category: Adult Jenf

May 17, 2004

We’re visiting Bonnie and David in Oregon. Such a nice drive and very satisfying visit with loved ones at their amazing spot on Earth.

Fresh water lakeside home separated from the Pacific Ocean by a small stretch of sand – nirvana…!

Bonnie and David have been together long before Ma and I.
So, so very sad, Ma and David, touched by the end of time.

Damn it, Love… death is so… permanent!

You Got Me – Colbie Caillat

You’re stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I cant pretend though I try to hide
I like you. I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I’m standing here and I can hardly breathe
You got me. Yeah, you got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours
it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just cant get enough
How much do I need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love
Its everything that Ive been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go.
Lets begin.
Cuz no matter what i do,
Oh (oh)
My heart is filled with you.

I cant imagine what it’d be like
Livin each day in this life
Without you. Without you.
One look from you
I know you understand
This mess we’re in you know is just so out of hand.

Oh, I just cant get enough
How much do I need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love
Its everything that Ive been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go.
Lets begin.
Cuz no matter what i do,
Oh (oh)
My heart is filled with you.

I hope we always feel this way
(I know we will)
And in my heart I know youll always stay

Oh, I just cant get enough
How much do I need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Lets begin.
Cuz no matter what I do,

Oh, I just cant get enough
How much do I need to fill me up?
It feels so good it must be love
(Its everything that I’ve been dreaming of)
I give up. I give in. I let go.
Lets begin.

Cuz no matter what I do,
Oh (oh)
My heart is filled with you.

Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.
Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.

February 2002

Picture of health in the snowy mountains of Utah during the 2002 Olympics. We arrived, rented a campsite, plugged in our ceramic heater, toasty-warm until the neighbor campsite said the electric outlet is rented – didn’t know – lost our heater – woof…! Ah well, the adventure begins – no worries!

I Want to Spend My Lifetime Loving You
Tina Arena

Moon so bright night so fine
Keep your heart here with mine
Life’s a dream we are dreaming
Race the moon catch the wind

Ride the night to the end
Seize the day stand up for the light
I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do

Heroes rise heroes fall
Rise again, win it all
In your heart, can’t you feel the glory
Through our joy, through our pain

We can move worlds again
Take my hand, dance with me
I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do

I will want nothing else to see me through
If I can spend my lifetime loving you
Though we know we will never come again
Where there is love, life begins

Over and over again
Save the night, save the day
Save the love, come what may
Love is worth everything we pay

I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do
I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do

I will want nothing else to see me through
If I can spend my lifetime loving you

I Want to Spend My Lifetime Loving You
Tina Arena + Marc Anthony

Shining in 1982

Today should-a, would-a, could-a been our 65th Wedding Anniversary – damn – can’t hide the pain!

You are the wind beneath my wings…

It must have been cold there in my shadow
To never have sunlight on your face
You were content to let me shine, that’s your way
You always walked a step behind

So I was the one with all the glory
While you were the one with all the strength
A beautiful face without a name for so long
A beautiful smile to hide the pain

Did you ever know that you’re my hero
And everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings

It might have appeared to go unnoticed
But I’ve got it all here in my heart
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it
I would be nothing without you

Did you ever know that you’re my hero?
You’re everything I wish I could be
I could fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings

Did I ever tell you you’re my hero?
You’re everything, everything I wish I could be
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle
For you are the wind beneath my wings
‘Cause you are the wind beneath my wings

Oh, the wind beneath my wings
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings
Fly, fly, fly away, you let me fly so high
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky
So high I almost touch the sky
Thank you, thank you
Thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings

Wind Beneath My Wings – Bette Midler

Disney World 2005

Damn it, Ma, OCG is closed after 15 years wear and tear on Paul’s heart strings. No idea how unscathed Paul will be after teeth and claws from regulators. They’re scratching and sniffing what’s left to apply ‘the law’. Business as usual for a closed business?

Wish you could commiserate with Paul. The stench of over regulation is going to close the rest of Ma and Pa shops. Go big or go home is how it goes today.

Love you Ma. Wish, oh wish we could play some more…

The Gift of Love – Bette Midler

You ask me what I want.
You ask me what I need.
It’s nothing you can buy.
My heart’s not ruled by greed.
I don’t love a diamond.
Diamond’s you see through.
I want you to hold me.
I want you to be true.

Give me the gift of love.
Look me in the eyes.
Say I’m the one you’re dreamin’ of.
That’d be the best surprise.
Give me the gift of your sweet love
in the light of the day,
in the dark of night.

Like the colors of the sun,
the feelings in your heart.
It’s all I want from you.
And when the sky is dark
I’ll have you beside me.
Who could ask for more?
I’ll just wear a smile
when you walk in the door.

Give me the gift of love.
Look me in the eyes.
Say I’m the one you’re dreamin’ of.
That’d be the best surprise.
Give me the gift of your sweet love
in the light of the day,
in the dark of night.

Give me the gift of love.
Look me in the eyes.
Say I’m the one you’re dreamin’ of.
That’d be the best surprise.
Give me the gift of your sweet love
in the light of the day,
in the dark of night.

Give me the gift of love.
Look me in the eyes.
Say I’m the one.
That’d be the best surprise.
Give me the gift of your sweet love
in the light of the day,
in the dark of night.
Always. Oooooh.

The Gift of Love – Bette Midler

August 1996 PGI Convention

Thousands of fans at Convention, smelling the smoke, watching the skies, and playing in seminars. Every year for ten years or so. In there loving it to the max. Ah love…

So many of us touched by the end of time. Know and love Traci and Smokey for 25 years but Smokey in hospice after a Covid vaccine. Smokey’s Celebration of Life is April 4. Know and love Scott and family for 40 years but Scott is in hospice not surviving from “We can’t do any more for you!”.

Damn it love… death is so… permanent!

Where Do Broken Hearts Go – Whitney Houston

I know it’s been some time
But there’s something on my mind
You see, I haven’t been the same
Since that cold November day
We said we needed space
But all we found was an empty place
And the only things I learned
Is that I need you desperately

So here I am
And can you please tell me, oh

Where do broken hearts go?
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that’s waiting there?
And if somebody loves you
Won’t they always love you?
I look in your eyes
And I know that you still care, for me (ooh, baby)

I’ve been around enough to know
That dreams don’t turn to gold
And that there is no easy way
No, you just can’t run away
And what we had was so much more
Than we ever had before
And no matter how I try
You’re always on my mind

So here I am
And can you please tell me, oh
Where do broken hearts go?

Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that’s waiting there?
And if somebody loves you
Won’t they always love you?
I look in your eyes
And I know that you still care for me

And now that I am here with you
I’ll never let you go
I look into your eyes
And now I know, now I know

Where do broken hearts go?
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that’s waiting there?
And if somebody loves you
Won’t they always love you?
I look in your eyes
And I know that you still care

Where do broken hearts go?
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that’s waiting there?
And if somebody loves you
Won’t they always love you?
I look in your eyes
And I know that you still care for me, for me
You still care for me

Where Do Broken Hearts Go – Whitney Houston

Christmas 1982

Innocent? Yes, relatively speaking. Only a couple years into Colorado after acclimating for a month at the campground then six months on Inspiration then into Five Fountains to settle down. Didn’t move around nearly as much here as we did where we came from. I figure we became less innocent but kept an inner glow because things had a way of working out for us, together.

Any remaining innocence was lost on November 6, 2019 at 1:42am, when the end of time touched my so much better half.

Innocence Lost – Jeff Beal

Christmas 1983

Talk about the future from 1983! How many cats will come and go, how many cars, how many times will we move to touch all our stuff, how much money will slip through our fingers, how many honey-do’s to get to nirvana?

Looking back on 40 years, the last 4 are a blur that needs Ma to fill-in the blanks. I really haven’t stopped obsessing over stuff. Guess I still need the focus to relieve those enduring sore spots. Time has callused some feelings, still some relentless triggers.

The Painter – Cody Johnson

She talks about the future like she’s flippin’ through a magazine
Finds the beauty in the thrown away and broken things
Gets excited about all my crazy dreams

Got every sunset that she’s ever seen memorized
Saves in a way for a rainy day or stormy night
The sky’s brighter lookin’ at it through her eyes

I don’t remember
Life before she came into the picture
Brought the beauty I was missin’ with her
Showed me colors I ain’t never seen
She took chances
With every wall I built, she saw a canvas
I thank God every day for how He made her
My life was black and white but she’s the painter

She reminds me that it ain’t too late to start again
Fine is good but you need some blue every now and then
How’d I live so long without her reckless touch?

I don’t remember
Life before she came into the picture
Brought the beauty I was missin’ with her
Showed me colors I ain’t never seen
She took chances
With every wall I built, she saw a canvas
I thank God every day for how He made her
My life was black and white but she’s the painter

I don’t remember
Life before she came into the picture
Brought the beauty I was missin’ with her
Showed me colors I ain’t never seen
She took chances
With every wall I built, she saw a canvas
I thank God every day for how He made her
My life was black and white but she’s the painter
She’s the painter

The Painter – Cody Johnson

1982 Through Patio Window

Ah Love, visiting with friends we’ve known for 40 years is really wonderful and tough and rewarding and tears at the heart. Look at your smiling chops lit by the glow of sun bursting through your hair. Is that a perm or just natural glowing charm?

Madly – Emily Vaugn

Fell in love in a taxi
We made out in the backseat, yeah
You’re the only one that asked me if
I’ll do anything you ask me, I

Swear that we’ll get it right
If you wonder how I’m feeling
Just know that I’m always on your side

I gave you more, love me, put you above me
I’m happy when you’re happy
I can’t help that I’m madly in love
In love, in love, in love, oh-oh-oh-oh
In love, in love, oh

Yeah, don’t know what I did before you
But I know that I adore you, ah-ah
If you’re wondering if I care, just-
Say the word and I’ll be right there

Yeah, I swear that we’ll get it right
If you wonder how I’m feeling
Just know that I’m always on your side (oh)

I gave you more, love me, put you above me
I’m happy when you’re happy
I can’t help that I’m madly in love
In love, in love, in love, oh-oh
In love, in love, oh

I gave you more, love me, put you above me
I’m happy when you’re happy
I can’t help that I’m madly in love
In love, in love, in love, oh-oh
In love, in love, oh

Madly – Emily Vaugn

September 23, 2005

Love of my life, soul mate, so very grateful to have and to hold for 52 years. Seems like only yesterday’s road trip away but a lifetime away too. Don’t obsess on stuff anymore, just doin’ time. Snowin’ today, Howard Homebody mode.

Remember one of our 47 moves from an upstairs apartment when Ma couldn’t hold the fridge and it chased me. I wore it well… So many of those cherished memories – Love you Ma.

In My Life – Beatles

There are places I’ll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain

All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends, I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more

In my life, I love you more

December 24, 2005

Never can tell when the last night will come. Truth in Adele’s lyrics hurts to the bone. Damn it Love… death is so… permanent…!

All I Ask – Adele

I will leave my heart at the door
I won’t say a word
They’ve all been said before, you know
So why don’t we just play pretend?
Like we’re not scared of what’s coming next
Or scared of having nothing left

Look, don’t get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I’m more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
‘Cause what if I never love again?

I don’t need your honesty
It’s already in your eyes
And I’m sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you’re the only one that matters
Tell me who do I run to?

Look, don’t get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I’m more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
‘Cause what if I never love again?

Let this be our lesson in love
Let this be the way we remember us
I don’t wanna be cruel or vicious
And I ain’t asking for forgiveness
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I’m more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
‘Cause what if I never love again?

https://youtu.be/rRWJcxa6mdo

Wedding Day, April 23, 1969

Fashionably late to the party is Jenf’s motto to make an entrance with all eyes on you. Worth every moment…!

When You Say Nothing at All – Ronan Keating

It’s amazing how you can speak right to my heart

Without saying a word, you can light up the dark

Try as I may, I can never explain
What I hear when you don’t say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me wherever I fall

You say it best, when you say nothing at all

All day long, I can hear people talking out loud (ooh)

But when you hold me near (you hold me near) you drown out the crowd (out the crowd)
Try as they may, they can never define
What’s being said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best (you say it best) when you say nothing at all

Oh, the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me wherever I fall

You say it best (you say it best) when you say nothing at all

That smile on your face (you say it best)
(When you say nothing at all) the truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand lets me know that you need me (you say it best, when you say nothing at all)
(You say it best, when you say nothing at all) nothing at all

December 1982

Ma loves her Boa’s and wore one at the Company Xmas party. Walking in on a big group of co-workers was something to see. All eyes on Jenf and lots of smiles and appreciation to make the party fun. Great big double wide Boa shames those store bought versions. Wish I could remember where we got them. Got my mind on you and a worthy memory it is.

Mind on You – George Birge

Well, baby, you’re a wildfire
That’ll light me up, little out of control
Yeah, you know
Baby, you’re a tall drink, little top shelf that’ll get me going, hold on
We both know that road that we’re goin’ down
And right now, all I can think about

I got my mind on you and you on my mind
Got these four wheels on a two-lane and we cuttin’ through the night
Got you high in my head and your love on my lips
Girl, I’m huggin’ on these curves, like them jeans on your hips
Every time you hop in lookin’ like you do
I got my hands and my eyes and my mind on you
I got my mind on you
I got my mind on you

Slide a little closer, babe
Wanna get your pretty little head on my shoulder and get closer
Girl, you know I love the way
You slip your hand under my shirt, then it’s over, go slower
We both know that road that we’re goin’ down
Right now, all I can think about

I got my mind on you and you on my mind
Got these four wheels on a two-lane and we cuttin’ through the night
Got you high in my head and your love on my lips
Girl, I’m huggin’ on these curves, like them jeans on your hips
Every time you hop in lookin’ like you do
I got my hands and my eyes and my mind on you
I got my mind on you
I got my mind on you, mmh yeah

I got my mind on you and you on my mind
Got these four wheels on a two-lane and we cuttin’ through the night
Got you high in my head and your love on my lips
Girl, I’m huggin’ on these curves, like them jeans on your hips
Every time you hop in lookin’ like you do
I got my hands and my eyes and my mind on you
I got my mind on you
I got my mind on you

I got my hands and my eyes and my mind on you
I got my mind on you and you on my mind (I got my mind on you, I got my mind on you)
(I got my hands and my eyes and my mind on you) I got my mind on you, yeah
(Got my mind on you)

Mind on You – George Birge

September 24, 2005

Damn… death is so… permanent…!

Ma and I have gone through another set of tires and need an alignment too. Ma doesn’t like the steering wheel on her Kia because it takes some effort to turn when not moving. Never thought about it when we drove it off the lot. Dad’s Cadillac had effortless steering. We asked sales about it and learned we got a performance package…hmm… The little things you don’t know when buying a car. I like it and see it isn’t effortless but that’s me. Of course, we would have waited for a special order but the test drive went straight from the ready to go position onto the street. Not a trick to hide something, just good Customer service. There’s a wheel alignment place Ma likes to use instead of Firestone or Big O or Tire World or Discount Tire. Learned that place is closed after all these years. Off to HH Tire on 85. They’ve been here since we’ve been here back to 1980. Ah, the good ol’ days – never could see tomorrow…

I can think of younger days when living for my life
Was everything a man could want to do.
I could never see tomorrow, but i was never told about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.

I can still feel the breeze that rustles through the trees
And misty memories of days gone by
We could never see tomorrow, no one said a word about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
And how can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.

Bee Gees – How Can You Mend a Broken Heart

25th Anniversary April 23, 1994

Guests on a boat on the way to snorkel at a tourist location.

Nearly 2500 miles of open ocean between California and Maui and we’re going into the water to see the wildlife…hmm…

Almost 20 years since we’ve seen the movie Jaws, knowing the wildlife includes sharks, and we’re determined to play. Ah well, this is the way…

Wish, oh wish we could do it again.

Giving You My Heart Forever – All-4-One

Don’t ask me how it could be
Sometimes it’s hard to believe
That in my lifetime I could find that someone
Who can make me complete

You are the air that I breathe
I’d surely die if you leave
’cause I have never felt this way
’bout any girl like I feel for you
So this is what I’m gonna do

I’m giving you my heart forever
Every beat of my heart says it’s true
I know we’ll always be together forever
You lovin’ me, me lovin’ you
And I’m giving you my heart to you

You are so special to me
Your love is all that I need
And I’m gonna spend the rest of my life
Loving you faithfully

This love I feel is so strong
With you my heart’s found a home
‘Cause no one in this world could ever love me so tenderly
So you can best believe

I’m giving you my heart forever
Every beat of my heart says it’s true
My love for you won’t fade no never
You lovin’ me, me lovin’ you
And I’m giving you my heart to you

And when I’m holding you close to me
I know all of my dreams have come true
Wanna let you know how I feel
Girl my love is for real
And I just wanna give it to you

I’m giving you my heart forever
Every beat of my heart says it’s true
I know we’ll always be together forever
You lovin’ me, me lovin’ you
And I’m giving you my heart to you to you

And when I’m holding you close to me
I know all of my dreams have come true
Wanna let you know how I feel
Girl my love is for real
And I just wanna give it to you

I’m giving you my heart forever
Every beat of my heart says it’s true
My love for you won’t fade no never
You lovin’ me, me lovin’ you
And I’m giving you my heart to you

I’m giving you my heart forever
Every beat of my heart says it’s true
I know we’ll always be together forever
You lovin’ me, me lovin’ you
And I’m giving you my heart to you
To you and I’m giving my heart to you

Giving You My Heart Forever – All-4-One

October 16, 1999

Look at those smiling chops! So very unexpected that my so much better half could ever be touched by the end of time.

Never, saw Ma as ‘old’. Lived with Ma, worked with Ma, loved with Ma, couldn’t do enough time with Ma…!

Next thing you know, doin’ time alone is a thing and life isn’t goin’ as fast as before…

Next Thing You Know – Jordan Davis

You swear that you’re stayin’ single, next thing you know
You meet a girl at a bar and next thing you know
You get her laughin’, it’s 2 AM
You’re tellin’ your buddies three months in
That she ain’t movin’ in, the next thing you know
There’s a U-Haul trailer, next thing you know
Your old apartment is y’all’s new place
There goes the carpet but the deer head stays

Next thing you know
You’re savin’ money like never before
Just to spend it all at a jewelry store
Gettin’ down on one knee on her mama’s porch
Just prayin’ she don’t say, “No”
Next thing you know
Your best man gives a half-drunk speech
And you’re sunburned on a honeymoon beach
And your left hand’s gettin’ used to that ring
And there the next two or three years go
Next thing you know

You weren’t really tryin’, next thing you know
There’s a test on the counter, next thing you know
She’s standin’ there cryin’, noddin’ her head, “Yes”
You’re half excited, half scared to death

‘Cause next thing you know
You’re wearin’ scrubs and a funny white hat
And the doctor’s sayin’, “How you doin’ there, dad?”
And nobody’s ever called you that
And you take the drive home slow
Next thing you know
It’s first steps, first dates, first car
It’s 11:01 wonderin’ where they are
You’re sayin’ that USC’s too far
It’s amazing how fast seventeen years go
Next thing you know
Next thing you know

Next thing you know
You get to know your wife again
And you’re more in love than you’ve ever been
With a lot of years of remember whens
And still some down the road

‘Cause next thing you know
You got a yard full of your kid’s kids
And you take ’em to church, teach ’em to fish
And you tell ’em stories every chance you get
About how fast this life down here can go
Next thing you know
(Next thing you know)
Next thing you know
(Next thing you know)

Next Thing You Know – Jordan Davis

1982

Soulmate 101 – be young at heart and get out often to seek the good ones in your path, whatever…

My so much better half loved her Dad. Wonder if they had this kind of heart-to-heart moment to discuss “boys”…?

Love is Passion – William Parish – Meet Joe Black

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can’t live without. I say, fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who will love you the same way back. How do you find them? Well, you forget your head and you listen to your heart. The truth is, there’s no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love; well, you haven’t lived a life at all. But you have to try, cause if you haven’t tried, you haven’t lived!

April 23, 1969

Off to San Vicente, Baja California for Honeymoon, driving our 4-door Canary Yellow Toyota packed over the roof with our stuff; somehow, we managed to bring more stuff back than we took. Jenf could always pack the car, having learned how-to on many of her coming-of-age family trips. Federales got a few bucks after they stopped us on the road to ask about our overstuffed car. Jenf had fun with them, Honeymoon and all…

Nothing in San Vicente but chickens, goats and farmers. We’d travel to Ensenada for fun, but we preferred Tijuana. Always managed to get back to our Honeymoon cottage by next day. We loved 12.5 pesos for every dollar back then. Right now, can go and touch the big chess set we got in Tijuana on our Honeymoon. Snoopy on his dog house painting packed in the Xmas stuff for every year display.

John Michael Montgomery’s long story short – I Swear

I see the questions in your eyes
I know what’s weighing on your mind
But you can be sure I know my part
‘Cause I’ll stand beside you through the years

You’ll only cry those happy tears
And though I’ll make mistakes
I’ll never break your heart

I swear
By the moon and stars in the sky
I’ll be there
I swear

Like the shadow that’s by your side
I’ll be there
For better or worse
‘Til death do us part

I’ll love you with every beat of my heart
I swear

I’ll give you everything I can
I’ll build your dreams with these two hands
We’ll hang some memories on the wall
And when there’s silver in your hair

You won’t have to ask if I still care
‘Cause as time turns the page
My love won’t age at all

I swear
By the moon and stars in the sky
I’ll be there
I swear

Like the shadow that’s by your side
I’ll be there
For better or worse
‘Til death do us part
I’ll love you with every beat of my heart
I swear

I swear
By the moon and stars in the sky
I’ll be there
I swear

Like the shadow that’s by your side
I’ll be there
For better or worse
‘Til death do us part

I’ll love you with every beat of my heart
I swear
I swear

I Swear – John Michael Montgomery

Maui April 1994
25th Anniversary

Travel Agent setup on-the-beach cottage for 10 days in Maui. Peaceful flight, got up to the check-in counter, oops, overbooked…

Still, wouldn’t trade the fun we had, not in the room much…

1st day, by the wall overlooking the waves, got hit by a rogue wave to stand there soaked. Learned Hawaiian shirts dry very quickly, by design! Photo of Ma at Luau hosted by the Marriott.

From the Heart touches Another Level

I know you’ve heard these words a hundred other times before
And you’ve been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart and brought you lies
Look in my eyes
You’ll see a love that’s deep and true
Tender and strong and all for you
You can trust this love
Honest, that’s the honest truth.

From the heart
I’m giving you everything, everything
From the heart
I promise you that I’ll be there
I’ll be there to love you
From the soul
I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel is
From the heart, from the heart.

I will protect you and respect you and be all you need
And when you reach for love you’ll only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down
They’re staying around
I’ll walk with you through every storm
I’ll keep you safe, I’ll keep you warm
And you’ll have no doubt
You’re the one i’m living for

From the heart
I’m giving you everything, everything
From the heart
I promise you that I’ll be there
I’ll be there to love you
From the soul
I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel is
From the heart, from the heart.

I’ll provide the love you need
Just trust my touch
Believe in me
I’ll never make you cry
Giving all I’ve got with all I’ve got inside.

From the heart
I’m giving you everything, everything
From the heart
I promise you that I’ll be there
I’ll be there to love you
From the soul
I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel is
From the heart, from the heart.

From the Heart – Another Level

Lake Shasta, May 1980

Sold our new home after a year and off to Washington State in early May 1980. A night or two in our popup then Mt. St. Helen erupted 5-18-1980…woof… Visited with our buddies a couple days enduring the ash then off we go on a months long spelunking. Arrived in Manitou Springs, CO to stay a month at shaded camp next to Fountain Creek. Gave it our all for the rest of our lives in the neighborhood… until…

The Air That I Breathe – The Hollies

I think I’d pass
Can’t think of anythin’ I need
No cigarettes, no sleep, no light, no sound
Nothing to eat, no books to read

… Making love with you
Has left me peaceful, warm, and tired
What more could I ask
There’s nothing left to be desired
Peace came upon me and it leaves me weak
So sleep, silent angel
Go to sleep

… Sometimes, all I need is the air that I breathe
And to love you
All I need is the air that I breathe
Yes, to love you
All I need is the air that I breathe

… Peace came upon me
And it leaves me weak
So sleep, silent angel
Go to sleep

… Sometimes, all I need is the air that I breathe
And to love you
All I need is the air that I breathe
Yes, to love you
All I need is the air that I breathe

… Sometimes, all I need is the air that I breathe
And to love you
All I need is the air that I breathe
Yes, to love you
All I need is the air that I breathe
And to love you

PGI Convention, Potato Field

Got there and found the Convention was on a huge potato farm with thousands of them still on the ground after harvest. What better thing to do than make potato guns. Asked the powers that be, they said ‘Why not!”. Got a sales table in the supplies shed, off to every hardware store to get materials, up that night making kits, sold so, so many over the week. People saying they haven’t had so much fun in a long while. Easily launch a fat one near 100 yards. Cheap hairspray and Coleman flint igniters were in short supply after we bought out the town to make the kits. Jenf in 7th heaven playing with Customers. Ma had a very good time, so we made sure to bring stuff with us to sell in annual Conventions, but not potato guns – they were a one time thing because of Potato Field.

Dream a little dream with you. Woke today remembering a nice visit in a dream. Like water, it slipped away, but felt warm and fuzzy, together again, blink of an eye…

Might get 40 years, not enough, might have to spend some time alone…

Damn, death is so…  permanent…!

If We Were Vampires – Jason Isbell

It’s not the long, flowing dress that you’re in
Or the light coming off of your skin
The fragile heart you protected for so long
Or the mercy in your sense of right and wrong
It’s not your hands searching slow in the dark
Or your nails leaving love’s watermark
It’s not the way you talk me off the roof
Your questions like directions to the truth

It’s knowing that this can’t go on forever
Likely one of us will have to spend some days alone
Maybe we’ll get forty years together
But one day I’ll be gone
Or one day you’ll be gone

If we were vampires and death was a joke
We’d go out on the sidewalk and smoke
And laugh at all the lovers and their plans
I wouldn’t feel the need to hold your hand
Maybe time running out is a gift
I’ll work hard ’til the end of my shift
And give you every second I can find
And hope it isn’t me who’s left behind

It’s knowing that this can’t go on forever
Likely one of us will have to spend some days alone
Maybe we’ll get forty years together
But one day I’ll be gone
Or one day you’ll be gone

It’s knowing that this can’t go on forever
Likely one of us will have to spend some days alone
Maybe we’ll get forty years together
But one day I’ll be gone
One day you’ll be gone